Frustration of beautiful changes.....

It has been a long time since i even messed with this thing but figured i had to write tonight to let some of my emotions out.

Over the past 6 months a lot has changed in my life. I am going to the gym as promised. 2 times a week is not a huge change but hey its a start so lay off.
I am still doing my best at work trying to make a difference and change things for the better.
My love life is doing fantastic I am still with the most beautiful girl in the world.
I am looking at moving in with her this winter season.
Can't wait for that.
I no longer have my Dodge Challenger....
Moved up to a Ram pick up truck

blah blah blah okay enough catching up already

My motivation for writing tonight was my helpless feeling of not being able to help a friend out when i knew they needed it. Sometimes certain struggles in life are meant to be taken solo. They are tests that we must all face at one point or another.
I sat in the stands and could only cheer and offer support.

It angers me to see those who are supposed to love you and instead are only bringing you down.
Protecting someone and looking out for there well being is admirable but shouldn't someone at the end of the lecture say you know we love you and we are here to support your choices in life. Is my family the strange ones for actually doing this and always told me what they felt yet told me you are your own man and we trust in your choices.

Why???
Why not the loving support that some people clearly need.

I am so filled with sorrow and rage right now.

A person can only take so much pain....
Soon choices are made not out of rational thought but out of contempt and spite.


Going to bed.....My day is ready to be over....Can't wait to see what kind of messed up situations await me tomorrow.